To regret one’s own experiences is to arrest one’s own development. To deny one’s own experiences is to put a lie into the lips of one’s life. It is no less than a denial of the soul.

-Oscar Wilde


When you look at someone, what do you see? Usually, you see the labels that society has placed upon them. But what about what is behind the label? Does that label really represent who they are? Or is it merely what they choose to show people? I guess for me, until very recently, I have always only shown the side of me that I thought the world wanted to see. The smart, possibly even geeky girl that pretty much always does what is expected of her. If you had asked me four months ago, if any of this was possible- I would probably tell you, that you were out of your mind. Not because I did not believe it was possible, but because I would not want you thinking of me that way, tarnishing my precious image. How quickly things change.

Chapter One